Monday, October 26, 2009

Hopes and Dreams

See this girl? This was me at 22 years old at my college graduation. I had all kinds of hopes and dreams. Ideas of where I what I would do in the future and where I would be. Expectations and fears and excitement.

I am now 47 and for some reason, I've been reflecting a lot lately on my life. Most of those dreams and expectations did not happen. Things did not work out exactly the way I planned. I started a Masters degree, almost finished and then got married and started having children which ended the educational pursuits.

I've been considering going back and finishing my Masters. However, I'm not sure if this is the Lord's timing. I'm not sure if I want to do this because it's what the Lord wants or because I'm feeling a bit insignificant lately. So I'm willing to wait if need be. It may be that I never finish and that would be okay too.

The Lord has a plan for my life that may not be exactly what I planned. However, if I am in the center of His will then that is the best place to be. I'm willing to wait on what He wants for me. I do know that in many, many ways my life is a lot better than what I planned! I have done things and been places and experienced things I never thought I would. I'm much more self-assured and capable than I was at 22.

I have different hopes and expectations and fears nowadays. I'm not the same person I was at 22 years old, yet I'm better and hopefully, wiser.