Impatience, irritation, frowning disposition, and a hard edge to my voice. Things that I hate about myself and yet, struggle with almost every day. In my mind and heart I long to be gentle, kind, patient, and loving. However, harshness and severity seem to pour out of my mouth quite often. I'm struggling with this. Struggling with it with my husband. With my children. With my church family. Lord, help me. How can the desire of my heart lose every time to the bad habits and sin that rises quickly to the surface? How can my countenance and words and emotions, betray the want of my heart? Philippians 4:5 ~ "Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near." I'm afraid that gentleness is not evident to anyone in my life, especially those closest to me. It hurts me that I hurt those I love with my irritability and impatience. Lord, change me. My prayer every day is that the Lord would take the old habits. The impulsive words. The sinful attitude. That He