Every Monday afternoon I make my way to the local farmer's market which is about a half a mile from my home to set up my booth. After I get it all set up, I usually take a picture and post it to facebook to help advertise that myself and the other vendors are there and to generate some interest.
Yesterday as I sat there and looked over my table of wares I was reminded once again of how much I enjoy being a stay-at-home mom. Every single thing on the table showed how much I have grown into this role over the years.
When Dan & I were first married, I had no idea how to do much of anything. The meals were tasteless, the house was a mess, and I was consumed with working outside of the home. I remember mold growing on the walls of the shower in my first house because I never cleaned. UGH! My main goal in life was to make a name for myself and change the world. To be honest, it was all about ME!
Yet, as I look back over my life, I remember being happiest at playing "house." I used to love to pretend that I was in my own home and cooking for my family. I would take my dolls and play for hours, caring for them.
When I had my first child, who had special needs my goals changed. I had no greater desire than to take care of my family. I still struggled with the whole "making a name" thing but always came back to the desire to be content at home. I remember lamenting to a friend, who was the head of a ministry we worked for about my struggle and her telling me, "Well, we are working women and we need to make sacrifices."
I thought, "Is sacrificing my family a price I'm willing to pay?" And that was the beginning of making changes so that I could stay home. I did not want to make that sacrifice and I am so glad that I made those changes. It hasn't always been easy and financially, it has been hard, but I'm so thankful for my life.
I have a relative who will tell me sometimes, "It's a shame that you aren't using your degree." Yet, in my mind I am! I was a psychology major in college and that certainly is being used each day as I deal with people. I used my seminary degree all the time as I minister alongside Dan and teach women the truths found in God's word.
I'm 52 years old and my youngest is 15 and I've gotten to the point where I am very peaceful with the decision I made so many years ago to stay home. I don't worry any more about what others think about my decision. And I am never bored! Unlike what most think, I don't sit around watching soap operas and eating bon-bons. lol In fact, I rarely sit at all. But I get to be creative and productive in a variety of ways each day.
(Barbara, I realize I still didn't put these in the Etsy Shop. Sorry!)
I get to minister alongside my husband. I am available to my children. I prepare nutritious meals. I manage our home and our lives and free up Dan to do his job more effectively. I am available to our church family when they need me and I have flexibility to make changes in my schedule as needed.
I may not be changing the world, but that's okay. I'm happy. I'm content. I'm productive and busy. I'm a homemaker. :-)